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Sunday, March 8th, 2009
1:13 pm - Friday Five
What would you do?

1. If your car/bike is wrecked (if your mass transit service goes belly-up), do you know what you would do to replace it, perhaps even have the car or bike you want already picked out?
I would be so lost. Currently my car isn't working and I am borrowing a friends vehicle. But that can't last forever.

2. A client/friend gives you a lottery ticket, which wins you a prize worth (after taxes) ten times as much money as you earned/received last year. What will you do with it?
I would move far away first so the person that gave me the ticket wouldn't think they are getting any of it (j/k). I would first pay off all debt that I have...Although only ten times what I earned I don't think would get me far.

3. Fight or flee?
Depends on the situation.

4. Someone performs a random act of kindness that is exactly what you need on a bad day. If you wish to pay them back, would you write a poem, bake, buy something, or what?
Buy something more then likely. BUT most random acts of kindness need to be passed on.

5. Your manager commands you to pick a charity to contribute to. Do you resist? If not, which charity would be your first choice?
I tend to go with the humane society or the wildlife foundation first.

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Tuesday, March 3rd, 2009
10:11 am - FRIDAY FIVES
Hodge Podge!

1. What activity can you not believe you survived in your childhood?
The whole entire thing. Childhood was torture.
2. What activity can you not believe kids get away with today?
Kids get away with so much today. Parents have forgotten how to yell and ground kids.
3. If you could be anyone else in the world live or dead, who would you choose to be?
I'm not sure. I have a hard time being me, I wouldn't know who else to try to be.
4. A lot of people think they've been in love at 15 or 16 years old, do you think you now look back and think you were a stupid kid or do you believe that you were old enough to know what love is?
For the most part I was a stupid kid. Although, there is one person in that age range that I know I loved and will always love. They meant alot to me and always will.
5. Do you think it is possible to remain in love with someone you once loved, but haven't seen in a year?


1. What tastes best covered in chocolate?
Ice cream.
2. Why do you eat chocolate the way you do (or don't)?
I just love chocolate!!!
3. Do you know how chocolate is made?
I've seen the Modern Marvels episode on the history channel on this.
4. If you knew you would live 5 years longer if you never ate any chocolate again, would you give it up?
Hell NO!!! Chocolate makes you sane.
5. Have you ever had carob?
nope cus I have no clue what carob is.

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Friday, February 13th, 2009
Hodge Podge!

1. What activity can you not believe you survived in your childhood?
Dodge Ball

2. What activity can you not believe kids get away with today?
Cell Phone usage

3. If you could be anyone else in the world live or dead, who would you choose to be?
Whoever I chose, I wouldn't want to remain them, I would just like to be them for a day or so.

4. A lot of people think they've been in love at 15 or 16 years old, do you think you now look back and think you were a stupid kid or do you believe that you were old enough to know what love is?
I think I was a stupid kid to think that at that age.

5. Do you think it is possible to remain in love with someone you once loved, but haven't seen in a year?
I think you can love that person still even if you haven't seen them in many years.

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Tuesday, January 20th, 2009
12:55 am - humph
It has been awhile since I have actually written an entry. So here it goes...

I have been in a rather depressed mood the past couple of days and can't seem to break the feeling. Even worse, I can't seem to let it out through tears or anything either. Currently it is just built up inside me and won't get the fuck out. My life would be so much better if I had a button that would just release all the stuff going on in my brain.

current mood: depressed

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Thursday, January 15th, 2009
12:14 am - Friday five
I am going backwards with these things.

# Do you enjoy reading?
Yes I love to read!
# What is the first book you remember reading?
It has to be "The Learning Tree" by Shel Silverstein.
# Who is your favourite author?
Stephen King
# What is your favourite book?
I have a few...I think if I chose one it would be "I Never Promised You A Rose Garden" by Joanne Greenberg
# What is the last book you read and the first you'll read next?
Stephen Kings "Wolves of the Calla" and the next is Stephen Kings "Songs of Susannah"

current mood: cold

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Tuesday, January 13th, 2009
2:57 pm - Friday Five
1. What would you do right now, if money were not an issue?
I would travel back to NJ to visit family and friends since I haven't been back in over 4 years.
2. What would you do for the next three years, if money were not an issue?
I would take time away from working and focus on traveling to places I would love to go to before I die.
3. What is bringing you the most joy right now that requires little or no money?
My pets...although feeding them costs money :)
4. What types of things do you find enjoyable that require no money?
I'd have to think on this one...I use to enjoy walking, but haven't done that in a long time.
5. Is there anything you've been meaning to do for a long time, but put off because of money?
Travel back to NJ...like I said in question #1.

1. What is your biggest waste of time in your home?
Doing laundry...they only get dirty again. :)
2. When at work, what is the activity that you find wastes the most time?
Having to face the shelves. People just come right behind you and unface them.
3. When getting busy with a date or significant other, what ritual could you do without?
I'm not sure. Depends on the day.
4. What is the biggest waste of time on the Internet?
At some point in time I have probably gone to some stupid site that I could have done without and wasted time on it.
5. What do you do at a restaurant to waste time when waiting for your meal?
If the restaurant has bread on the table I am guilty of eating some of it hoping time gets used up but by the time the meal arrives I am half full and can't finish what I ordered. As for conversation to waste the time, it all depends on who I am with.

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Tuesday, September 16th, 2008
4:09 am - FRIDAY 5
1. If you were to die today, what would your last words be?
Just my fucking luck.
2. What would you want your epitaph to say?
Late in life early in death
3. What song would you want played at your funeral?
Road to Nowhere by Ozzy
4. In lieu of flowers, what should loved ones do in your honor?
Throw a party
5. What unfinished business would you wrap up?
Screw it, I'd be dead why bother.

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Monday, September 1st, 2008
8:11 pm - Long Time
I decided first to put up a couple Friday Five's for my first entry back.

How many times a day do you...

1. Brush your teeth? 5 or more
2. Shower? 1 time sometimes 2
3. Check your E-mail? depends on the day, but lately I've checked 5 or 6 times, normally only once
4. Check LJ? I haven't checked in years until last night
5. Eat? 1 time maybe 2


1. What type of hair do you have? (Thin, Normal, Thick, Frizzy, etc.) Thin and long
2. What color is your hair currently? blond
3. What colors have you dyed/highlighted your hair? lighter blond and a dark cherry red
4. If you could dye your hair any color, what would it be? I would redye it the cherry red but the color was discontinued
5. What is your hair's length? 3 ft about...its to my butt.

current mood: calm

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Friday, May 12th, 2006
11:46 pm - Two weeks worth of Friday Fives
About Names
1) Do you like your birth-name? Why? Not really...To many jokes can be made from it.
2) If you could change your name to anything else, what would it be? Im not telling...If I become a famous writer its the name I am going to write under.
3) What names would you consider giving your children? Joseph for boy and Kaylie for a girl...thats today anyway/
4) If you had a band, what would you name it, and why? Phallic Pickles ... Nastalgic reasons.
5) Is there a name that you completely hate? Why? Daniel...dated way to many of them.
If you knew you were going to die on at specific day at a specific time, what's the last...
1. song you would listen to? Road to Nowhere by Ozzy
2. book you would read? Either the latest Harry Potter or a Stephen King novel
3. person you would talk to? my grandparents
4. food you would eat? Tacos
5. goal you would accomplish? not sure

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Saturday, April 29th, 2006
12:15 am - Again with the friday five
1. Who was your first kiss (your mom does not count)?
*laughs* I was about 5 and his name was Jimmy. He had seen his parents kiss and I had seen mine kiss, so we wanted to see what it was.
2. What is your idea of the perfect date?
Depends on the mood I was in. Normally dinner and a movie...But during dinner, good conversation was always a very big plus!
3. What music needs to be on when you are “getting your thang on”?
Something slow.
4. What is the most amazing experience you’ve ever shared with a partner?
Being in love with each other.
5. Sex is best saved for: love, marriage, alcohol, days that end in “y”?
Days that end in y *smiles*
Bonus....I dont know any of them.

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Saturday, April 22nd, 2006
2:15 am - Not that it matters but my friday five this week
1) How do you feel about people who commit suicide? Such as, do you feel that they are too lazy to deal with life, have depression, do you feel sorry for them, etc.?
I dont think that those who commit suicide are simply to lazy to deal with life, but I do feel that they weren't strong enough to deal with life. I believe the main cause is depression or sudden extreme experiances that they can't deal with cause a person to commit suicide. I feel sad for them because they didn't realize that no matter how bad things seem, it isn't the end of the world or the need to end their own life. (As for terminally ill people who end their life, perhaps they chose the strong way out for themselves...instead of going in pain, they went out on their own terms not hooked to machines to help their final moments.)
2) What do you think people say about you behind your back?
I could care less what people say about me behind my back. Odds are its not true and if it is then whatever. If they feel the need to talk about me behind my back must mean I am interresting to them and they have nothing better to do.
3) If you could own and operate any major business, what would it be?
Since alot of my experiance is in some form of retail that is where I would go. I see so many different things wrong with every place I have worked that would make a buisness so much better, but impossible to do in corporate opperated stores or even privately owned ones...you have to own your own store to do anything about the situations.
4) Are you/would you be embarrassed to talk to your friends or family about sex?
Family a little bit still. Just my grandparents (they raised me) more so. Its hard for me to let go the "Im still a little girl" image for them. Yet, they know I am active and even live with my boyfriend. As for talking to my friends about it...that is like an always occurance. Dont get into details, but it is discussed.
5) In some cultures, young women are married and begin families as soon as they start a menstrual cycle. Do you believe this is right or wrong? Why?
The cultures that this occurrs in is simply the way of life in those areas. Unfortunately most of the time this ends up being in the countries where poverty is high and survival rate of children is slim. Yet, apparently it works for those cultures. Do I think it is right...no, but it isn't my culture to believe that it is right.

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Friday, April 14th, 2006
11:00 pm - another friday 5...not like anyone looks.
1. What is your favorite photo?
I have 2 right now. The first is a photo of my grandparents and I standing on the Jersey side of Hudson Harbor with the twin towers behind us taken a year prior to 9/11/01. The second is a photo of my boyfriend and I just relaxing on the couch together after I got home from work and was tired.
2. Who took the photo?
The first photo was taken by a visiting aunt. The second photo was taken by my grandmother.
3. If you could photograph anything or anyone what/who would it be?
Im not sure, I really like taking photos. So when the mood comes over me, I take a photo.
4. What makes a good photo?
It depends on the person and what they are thinking about it. Its a personal feeling.
5. Which do you prefer: digital or print?
Either one is okay.

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Monday, April 10th, 2006
12:40 am - This weeks 5
1. Do you like chicken?
Alive or to eat? Alive are cute and to eat I can.
2. What is 1 food you can't live without?
Oh I love tacos! I probably would have issues if I couldn't have them any more.
3. Are you an early bird or a night owl?
I am a night owl. Mornings are not my thing.
4. Chocolate or vanilla?
Chocolate! YUM!
5. Are you more of a cat person or a dog person?
I like both and have owned both. Dogs are fun and never mind any attention at all. Where cats like to be independant and only want attention on their terms.

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Friday, March 31st, 2006
9:13 pm - Friday Five again
1) When you were little what was your favorite TV show?
I can't narrow it down very well...I remember liking "The Secret Garden," "Zoobilee Zoo" and "Romper Room."
2) What was your favorite movie?
Dirty Dancing
3) What is your favorite TV show currently?
I like watching "Law&Order:Criminal Intent," "Stargate:SG1" and currently "America's Next Top Model."
4) What is the best movie you have seen so far this year?
I havent seen anything other then movies on HBO/MAX/SHOW...
5) If someone was going to make a movie or TV show about your life, who would play you and why?
Well I would like to play myself at the current age...Why let someone else get the REALLY big paycheck.

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Monday, March 27th, 2006
11:40 pm - This weeks friday five
1) Of the various cultures, ethnicities or nationalities you belong to, which most strongly do you consider yourself?
Since I have many, I consider myself mosly German and Irish. Those are the most dominant ones.
2) Is there a culture you cannot claim heritage from but which you feel quite close to?
No. But I do have a culture in which I am apart of I wish I knew more about.
3) What's one language you wish you knew fluently?
I wish I knew Spanish a little more fluently then I do. Have the basics but never grasped fluency.
4) If you could move anywhere in the world and be guaranteed a job, etc., where would you go?
Anywhere in Italy or Greece. They have such a history and culture.
5) If you had a time machine, and could witness any one event without altering or disturbing it, what would you want to see?
Tough one, but I would probably want to witness a Shakespear play as it was originally put on.

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Saturday, March 18th, 2006
1) If you were to star in a movie, who would you want to be cast as your love interest?
Hum? Honestly, I'd love if my boyfriend was my love interrest. But if I was to choose a star...I'd chose Marshall Mathers (Eminem)...now stop laughing.
2) What genre of movie would you most like to star in?
Horror film definately.
3) What song would you insist be on the soundtrack?
"Road to Nowhere" by Ozzy
4) What would you wear to the premiere of your movie?
Something plain and simple. I don't want to be a typical star and wear a major fashion label...after all normal people can't buy something like that so why even bother to show off something that no one without money could even afford. I want to show that I am just like everyone else and not any better just because I was in a movie and had some money.
5) Who would you thank in your Oscar acceptance speech?
My family and friends who supported me. The person who discovered me needs a mention. From there anyone who I felt helped me in the movie to be what needed to be done.

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Saturday, March 11th, 2006
1) 10 years ago what did you think you would be doing now?
I figured I would be a teacher, married and possibly have a child by now.
2) Where do you think you will be in 5 years from now?
Not much different then I am now sadly.
3) Do you live life one day at a time or look to the future.
I live one day at a time and try not to think about what tomorrow might do.
4) Do you wish you could go back in time and undo something in your life?
Yes of course, but then I wouldn't be who I am now if I did do that.
5) If you could send a message back in time and give a younger version of yourself some advice, what would it be?
Don't let people dictate your future and don't let them change what you want to do.

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Friday, March 3rd, 2006
11:39 pm - This Weeks Friday Five
1. Who was your favorite all time teacher(s)?
Mr. Miceli from high school
2. What did they teach?
3. What is your best memory from that class?
The day one of our guy students with long hair got his hair cut and Mr. M made him take down his hood and shocked the class and himself.
4. Did you ever have a crush on a teacher and if so who?
No...a student teacher yes.
5. What is the craziest/wildest/weirdest thing you (or someone you know) ever did at school?
Made out with a boyfriend in a classroom after school my sophmore year in highschool.

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Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006
1. If you could go back and relive one moment or day from your life, without changing anything, what would you re-experience?
---Without changing anything would be rough...because that would be the thing I'd be tempted to do. As an observer, I guess I'd go back and watch my mom's marriage to my step-father (who has since passed away). I don't remember my mom being any prettier or so in love as I did that day.

2. If you could witness a moment in history, again without changing anything, what would you want to see?
---I'd like to see Abraham Lincoln's most famous speech. Just to be see that would be amazing.

3. If you could talk to a younger version of yourself, what age would you visit and what message would you give?
---I'd maybe go back to the age of 4, before much contact with the world outside my own home. Just let her know to live life and what may be said or done over the years by others will only make her a stronger person. I'd also let her know to live life and try to be as happy as can be.

4. If you could choose one moment that would be guaranteed to happen in your future, what would it be and when would it happen?
---I'd like a very peaceful passing. Just to be able to go in my sleep without any pain. As for when, not a clue.

5. Pretend you left a time capsule for yourself 5, 10, 15, 20 or more years ago. You just opened it. What three things from your past are you now holding and what age were you when you buried them?
---Lets go with 13 years ago...I would have been in HS and I would be 15 years old. I would have put in a Nirvana Tshirt, photos (family friends animals myself) and a copy of Dirty Dancing (I loved that movie)

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Wednesday, February 8th, 2006
1:45 am - I dont know why I bother
I don't think anyone reads any of this junk i write in here, but oh well. I dont have much to say that is worth reading anyways. Life is rather dull for me at the moment. Oh wells

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